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My Testimony — For Those Who Are Unsure If you are someone who isn’t sure what you believe, I fully understand. I lived as an agnostic from the age of 13 until I was 68. Before that, I believed in Jesus. I grew up in church. My parents and grandparents were devoted Christians. I went to revivals, Bible school, and church camp. But at 13, I started to doubt my faith. One question that really confused me: If Christianity is the only way to eternal life, what about all of the other religions other than Christianity? Are they all wrong? So I stopped believing in any religion. I truly lost my faith. I never truly searched for answers. I simply stepped back and called myself agnostic. I believed there was something greater than us, but I wasn’t sure what. Life went on. Heavy drinking became part of it. At first it was social. Then weekend binge drinking. Then it became daily. When chronic back pain entered my life, alcohol became how I coped. The worse the pain, the more I drank. Eventually, I stopped caring what it was doing to me. I quit once for a year and convinced myself I wasn’t addicted — just undisciplined. But thinking I could only drink while on a vacation led right back to daily drinking. I knew I had a problem but was afraid to stop because I didn’t think I could. And then God stepped in. Through my wife who he gave the courage to give me a clear ultimatum either I stop or she was done because she could not stay and watch me kill myself. Though I didn’t fully recognize it at the time God was working through her. Today I am 2½ years alcohol free, and I no longer desire to return to it, ever! Even then, I still wasn’t sure what exactly I believed. That changed when I was diagnosed with squamous cell carcinoma. After the first surgery did not remove deeper cancer cells, I had to undergo more extensive removal and skin grafts. For the first time in my life, I truly faced my mortality. I was afraid. Scared to death. With nowhere else to turn, I prayed. Not for healing. Not for a miracle. I prayed for strength — strength to trust God no matter what happened. What happened next is difficult to explain. I felt a peace I had never known before. A feeling of love, joy, bliss, and warmth! The fear disappeared and I felt overwhelmed and I cried tears of happiness. I had a sense that I was not alone. I felt his presence. I realized something in that moment: even though I had forgot God for decades, He never forgot me. That experience did not erase every question I ever had. It did something deeper — it changed my whole way of thinking. I began to see the world differently. The complexity of life. The order in creation. The uniqueness in even the smallest details. I stopped demanding that I solve every mystery before I could believe. Instead, I began to trust that there is a God whose goodness does not depend on my full understanding. For me, it became simple: God is good. God is love. When I lived apart from Him, I drifted toward self destruction. When I turned toward Him, I found life, hope, salvation, and promise. I now believe my soul will outlive my body, and I know where I want to spend eternity — with God, through Jesus Christ. But my faith is a journey. I still grow. I still learn. I still surrender pride and self-reliance. Faith, for me, is not about having every answer. It is about trusting the One who carried me through addiction, fear, and doubt. If you are unsure of what you believe, I won’t argue you into faith. I can only tell you this: when I sincerely asked God for strength instead of proof, I found Him. If you are searching, don’t be afraid to pray — even if you’re not sure anyone is listening. That’s where my return began. And I will pray that all who are searching find what they are truly looking for. God is good. Always.
TESTIMONY VERIFICATION STATUS: Unverified

TESTIFIER:

Gene Walda


PASTOR:

None


LOCATION:

United States


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